Aside from sleeping in until almost noon, which I had no intention of doing. I just didn't sleep well. We can blame the random tooth ache that decided to rear its ugly head.
Other than that, though, I've been drinking the right amount of water and not staying completely put on my ass all day.
I bought a daily planner for this year. In it, I've pre planned workouts, walk times, and yoga plans. I'm also using it to keep track of water intake, sleep, measurements, exercise etc.
I worked out for 45 minutes just now. I did a half an hour of chest and ab workouts and went for a walk. That's more than I've done in a loooooong time. Even when I've gone on walks with my mother and sister, I never really counted it because they're in so much better shape than I am. I'd always kind of linger behind and struggle to keep up.
Today, THIS, felt like progress in itself. I got up off of my ass and decided to actually follow through with my plans. It felt...REALLY nice. Even in those moments I had to mentally push myself to just keep doing it, I felt accomplished. During my walk, I actually felt good being outside. It's not every day you see someone like me getting up, walking away from my laptop, and going for a walk voluntarily. I'm a hermit, I like my hidey hole.
But actually getting off my ass for a change felt really good.
I thought a lot about my goals. What amount of weight I wanna lose and how I'm going to keep it off when I get there. I don't think I've ever been this motivated to actually lose weight. Not since my first juice fast. But, as we all know, that's water weight. I just didn't do anything to keep it off. This feels like it will be more permanent when I'm done.
I thought a lot about the reasons I'm doing this. The main reason of course being my health. Second of all, I'm sick and tired of being a fat ass. I know that sounds harsh, but you haven't seen me at my absolute worst. It's astounding how much I've grown in the past couple of years. The attitude change has been the biggest I think I've ever experienced. Being that I'm almost 30, it's kind of sad. But hey, it's never too late for a change, right?
I'm just glad I actually stepped up and started this like I said I would. I told my husband finally that I'm doing this. He's being overwhelmingly supportive. I told him to never give me another soda again. I told him to keep sweets away from me. And not to judge what I decide to eat.
It's not easy when you live with a man who loves his Dr. Pepper and junk food. I know not every man is like this, but my husband is a gamer (so am I) and gamers do love their easy to score snacks and drinks. It makes the sedentary life a lot easier.
I don't mind being lazy if it's not detrimental. But I've been lazy for far too long and turned myself into a hypocrite. I've sat my butt in front of my lap top whenever I had free time and played games. Sometimes I'd write and a lot of the time I veg out on YouTube videos. I'm the very definition of a couch potato.
That's the main reason for this change. And I'm kind of using my laziness to benefit this.
Instead of thinking to myself "I don't WANT to do anything else but sit and play games or veg out." I'm kind of using it as a reward system.
"First, get up and do something. Clean. Do your workout. Play with the dog. THEN you can relax and play your games."
Sounds kind of silly that I absolutely HAVE to tell myself these things, but that's just kind of how my brain works. When I've had a long day at work, I reward myself with my lazy time. It only makes sense to stretch this into my new routine.
That's another thing, I'm definitely working to make working out a routine. That's the hardest part. Creating a new habit. I'm a creature of habit, and don't like change much. But considering this is all a game of mind over matter, I think I can do it just fine.
Overall, it's been a good first day for this. I'm glad I decided to finally step it up. Here's to keeping it up. You with me?
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